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Name: Sophia
Location: California
Birthday: 4/13/1901
Gender: Female
Interests: Graduating! Passionate music, ocean swimming, earrings, traveling, spontaneity, cake.
Expertise: Alphabetizing, feeling the spirit especially on the dance floor, winking, b.s.ing essays, communicating with the dim sum ladies, loving.
Occupation: Executive
Industry: Media
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  ILove JuanPierre
Member Since:
8/21/2003
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until then, costco sells really good mangos, a lot of them too. | | |
| What a happy day. I used to hate valentine's day because the idea of forced shows of affection cheapens it. However, today gave me an excuse to make nice little love things for everyone that I care about. It was fun, I hope they feel loved because ordinarily I don't have the time to show it... but i feel it... and I feel love back
I did make a hate valentine though... I didn't want to leave my arch nemesis out.
Love!
Weeee! | | |
| MIDTERMS MIDTERMS RAWRAWRAWR!!!!
anybody agree? | | |
| [insert emo song lyric here]
I wrote an entry a few minutes ago. It was a lot about the epiphanies I've had and all the things I should do and am doing to try to be good to myself. When I was done I realized it was complete bullshit. I don't know why I would try to completely bullshit myself like I just almost did, but now I have to go think about who I ACTUALLY am and what I ACTUALLY want and what is ACTUALLY good for me, instead of all the psychological therapisty crap that I know so well that I can regurgitate it in my sleep. No. More. Bullshit. I'm not that happy, i'm not being good to myself, I'm not being taken care of, I haven't really been eating, i'm failing in a lot of ways and that's okay? or something? I don't have to be perfect right now. I don't have to be happy when I'm not. I don't have to know all the answers. I'm tired of pretending.
I have 2 midterms this week. One on thursday and one on friday. I have events all weekend, then a midterm next friday, then I go to New York for a week. I am also the RA meaning I have to deal with problems in an entirely different realm that many college students can't even imagine. To be quite frank, if I have made any effort towards you in the past month, consider yoursellf lucky. And if I haven't, I'm sorry. I'm handling ( er... trying to handle..) a lot right now. I am still very much open to people, but my time is so limited these days, i need to spend more of it keeping myself happy. I need to be happy. If you'd like to contribute, that would be very nice.
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| I discovered that a good way to weed out people who don't care about you is to go crazy with shit to do, and then see who calls you. I am so grateful that Elena has been calling me frequently and cooking me dinner, Finn has beene coming over all the time to see how I am, and Travis, Olivia and Emi have been leaving me little notes. It is nice.
It's sad that some of my relationships are sort of dropping like flies, but I have to tell myself that if I'm not worth a phone call, if i'm not worth keeping in touch with to that person, then that person shouldn't be worth it to me. I guess (in theory) if this continues, I'll either be left with a handful of people who love me, or no one, really. I guess we'll see, because I've got to go to a meeting now. | | |
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